Scary

Did you ever have a dream where it felt like someone was pulling you? Some force that you couldn't understand? Something so powerful, you can't even express what happened in words?

Well that happened this morning. And has happened before. I remember watching something about Muhammad the prophet being pulled by a terrible force (God or the archangel I can't remember) and being scared and unable to speak for a while.

Except this kind of thing is supposed to have a message and I wasn't feelin one. Maybe it's supposed to be a wakeup call to stop screwing around so much. But I don't take it as such. It was so weird I felt like I was awake when it happened.

MEh but I'll bore you another time.

I have developed an increasingly cynical view since getting banned from iSketch (and not receiving responses from feedback) and I feel, in turn, that I'm not obligated to answer the call of the world, aka doing homework, going to class, talking to people, because I've been screwed with, until this is (improbably) resolved. But then fear of faiure eventually turns me around when I realize it is completely necessary to do shit. I don't understand why people do things for no reward. I mean what the fuck's the point of caring if you don't get anything out of it?

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